If you listen closely you hear....nothing..

If you listen closely you hear....nothing..
Originally uploaded by solea.

*****never*****

never.
that you said innumerable moments ago.
i searched i tried to no avail;
all that i've seen and all that i know
i am yours. in all detail.

never.
heard again after the circle round.
head bowed against the soundless expanse -
frozen. so like the heart never found
always broken. never a chance.

ground zero mid mornings

took the leap.
went to see the princess in metrowalk this morning.
pressed for time. and for a place to hang-out.
i left a girl and came back to a woman.
sitting across the table.ah time.
and follies of inane men too stupid to know.
or to hear. or listen.
i am thankful i went.

Waited In Vain

Waited In Vain
Originally uploaded by Spiegelbild.

My hope dries up like a sun baked stream, cut off from its source. To ever find the answers I have been looking for, to resolve these that I harbor in my soul.

Was it her? Or she that passed before? Or that woman from back then.

Never to be whole again, is that to be my lament? Yet I remain. Here. Hope against all hope. Maybe. There's always maybe.

Arrivals

There's a first time for everything.
My first published work arrived yesterday, and well for the lack of a better way to put it, I of course was all agog and beside myself with joy. Seeing my name and work in that glosssy sheet of paper gave me more satisfaction than all the paychecks I ever recieved combined. I still believe I am crappy person, but hell inspite of my despondent nature, the sun shone in between the clouds.

The thought of cartloads of those magazines, marching off to their individual destinations, is a wet dream come true.Ahahaha there is no dream of world domination kiddies (apparently I am not as psychotic as I previously believed), only a wish to be heard, like most of us.