I have the merciless drone of the wall fan in my ears and the comforting sliver of yellow light from a door slightly ajar. The rains have since stopped falling and it woke me up. This is wholly against my current predisposition but hey, I haven’t written for some time now.
It’s been one of those long weeks. To be perfectly straight, it’s been six months of those long weeks. I’m at a point where I’m starting to ask myself why am I doing it at all? I’ve thrown everything I know at it and more, given time otherwise spent somewhere else, and it’s responded. 30% increase in certain KRA’s and higher in others. But the monkey won’t budge. G*d*mmit the freaking monkey won’t budge.
Gotten awards and all that clap clap clap for me and my team. But it still feels empty. Now I’m blogging about it. To be fair about it, I am happy with most things, but with this – no. I’m still there mainly because of a promise. To a group of people that I will show them how things are run as I was taught. The downside of it was, they all want to go where I go now. Until I teach the next step which is go ye and propagate the principle, I have a nuke on my hands once I tender the bye bye baby papers.
So fuck. Another series of long weeks.
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